I just want to cry. I am exhausted. I feel like utter crap. I havnt been sleeping well again. Its been fine for months now, but fri night i went all insomniac again and couldnt sleep. I got about three hours in total. I went out sometime after three and was woken before 7 with people moving round the house. I tried to go back to sleep for another couple of hours but couldnt. So i had to get up and go through my saturday on three hours sleep. And a can of v which i had just before work. It didnt really last that long. I was exhausted by the end of it.

I tried to nap when i got home but couldnt get into a deep sleep of any kind with people walking around. So i just stayed awake. I stayed up till about 10 then i just had to go to bed. I was so sure i would just crash being as tired as i was. But i didnt. It took me over 40 mins to get to sleep. I know cos my CD played out. I did sleep better though. I got at least 7 hours last night but it really wasnt enough. I was awake before 7 again but just stayed in bed.

I dont want my insomnia back. Two days of it and i just want to cry. During last xmas holidays i slept for about 13 hours a day. Why cant i get that back? Im so tired. And im crabby and snapping at people so now bill hates me for being a bitch. I just want a good nights sleep. I want to be able to sleep through the smallest noises like someone opening a door downstairs. I want to sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep.

hnk lyl
nicole