cassidy - 2006-05-11
I am just never going to say(small voice) beaver(/small voice) agian. Even if its about a real... that sort of animal. I just feel so bad. I mean the way he said 'My name is cassidy'. I mean knife to the heart much. And they couldnt even give him a reason to live. Completely destroyed me.

And how mad am i that i feel that way! He's a freakig RAPIST and MURDERER and he made me hysterical thinking keith was dead. He deserves to be dead. Deader than dead. But i really just feel so so incredibly sad for him and that he's gone. I loved cassidy. I shipped cassidy. I sqeed for cassidy.

Its all so sad. And logan! Ohmiga my fangirl heart is a puddle on the floor. And duncan - totally redeemed himself. There are too many sqeetastic moments to reacp. It was just too good. So good i couldnt even come here straight away to vent. Cos there was nothing to vent. I was just shocked and kinda numb. Just stuck in Oh.My.Ga. mode. I couldnt speak or think or anything. And now its over for another season.

In other news i have something like 7 assignmnets due over the nest 4 weeks. I am going to cry. Sometimes uni almost seems bearable and then they remind you its really not. I really hate smart people. The people who always volenteer to read out there stuff first and its effing brilliant and it jsut leaves you shrinking down in your seat wondering how the hell you even got into uni in the first place, and what your still doing there. At least i've passed everything so far.

Ohmiga i just saw cassidy on smallville!!! Timing much!? Awwwww man he was so nice. I miss nice cassidy. I'm always just ganna see him as this screwed up mess now.

Anyways i didnt get a nap today so i'm really tired. And cranky. I'm a total two year old. I'm just like chinkabelle. So i'm ganna go lay down and try and sleep. I really hope i get a whole night tonight cos i am dead. I got what - 6 hours last night? And no nap today. I'm surprised i can function. Its probably left over adrenelin from last night keeping me going. So yes sleep is good. Nighty night.

hnk lyl
nicole

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