I am so upset. Today was the first night of the austin texas marsathon. People out there have seen it. And there are still 11 days left on my countdown, i'm not even half way there. 11 days is a horrible incredibly long time. I thought i'd done forever already with 9 days, but i still have to do that all over again plus two days. That is a very depressing thought.

So the day begun bad with the waking and the first thought being that it was marsathon day. To take my mind off things and cheer me up a bit i went to the movies with mum amd saw chicken little (cos i've seen everything else pretty much), it was alright, typical disney, not as funny as pixar. And then we went shopping which was my main distraction of the day cos 'This Bird has Flown' has finally been released in aust. Its a CD which i've been wanting for ages, it was on my birthday and christmas list but i didnt get it. And so i had my hopes up to drown my sorrows in the beatles, but i went everywhere and NO ONE had it!! No one had even heard of it. Soooooooo upset!

So the only thing i ended up getting was one top from supre. So much for retail theropy. Looks like i'm ganna have to buy that CD online now. So the shopping and movieing not only didnt cheer me up it really just made me more bummed. But bummed i could deal with. I just retreated to my room, listened to stereophonics, scrapbooked and read magazines and dealt with the dissapointment. And then i made the stupid decision to visit TWoP. The Marsathon thread.

And now bummed has officially moved to depressed. It sounded like so much fun and i wasnt there. All the big true fans over at TWoP were there, and i wasnt. I feel guilty for being a bad fan and not jumping a plane to america. I feel angry at those stupid people for being so lucky. But mostly i feel so incredibly jelous i could cry. Seriously.

Everyone who went got to meet greet and get an autograph. Some got hugs and personal messages. Jason wrote out logans inspirational message for one fan. There was a Q&A session which involved much duncan bashing. There was the new freaking episode. And all being shared with other V freaks as obessed as each other. And many of them get to do it all again tomorrow. That is my heaven. And i wasnt there.

hnk lyl
nicole

Also - On a related note. I found out the cafe closes at 6 now. My first thought - thank god!!! If i get a friday shift i'll still be home in time for veronica!!