So what have i to talk of? I dunno not that much has happened today really. It was pretty much your average boring sunday. Oh, i did get baptised, i guess thats something. ^_^ Hehehe.

I feel quite happy now, but i was soooo nervous this morning! I was shaking all day!!! I had to go to this meeting at nine to talk about the baptisms and why we do it and what would happen at the pool and everything. And they told us we had to say in front of everyone why we wanted to get baptised, and that made me so eeeeeee. Getting baptised in front of everyone was scary enough, i didnt want to have to SPEAK!! And we had to go round the table at the meetinng to say why. It was scary enough telling like the 8 people there. So that made me nervous aswell.

And yes after the meeting i went to the morning service at church, and that was really good. I like morning services, or at least todays. Mark spoke on being in a team or family. And i liked that, i kinda realised i feel comfy in the church now. Like not necessarily talking to all the people cos i still dont know anyone really. But just sitting in church isnt so intimidating anymore. Even months after i started going it still felt a bit scary sometimes. But it feels good now, its definitly the church i'm meant to be in.

So yes then i went home and i had like an hour to freak out a bit. Dad didnt get it. I was so shaky and i kept saying i was nervous. But he's like why, you'll be fine. But it wasnt about me so much, the talking bit was, but it was just huge. I'm a very indecicive and indefinite person, i like to sit back and not commit so much. And now i had to do the hugest commitment ever in front of everone. Not that i was unsure i wanted to committ, it was just HUGE. You know?

So yes, and then dad and me left. I asked b if he wanted to come and he was like 'nah i'm eating'. Thanks b. And we picked up mum and she was all excited and stuff. I was so nervous when we got there, i was just standing around going eeeeeee. Then brad, nomi and rach showed up, that was nice. I didnt expect brad but that doesnt really matter. And then becca showed up and that was good. Made me feel better, cos she was the one going in with me, and i needed her to... i dunno, i just felt better when she got there! And she brought me a present, which was so cool! Sars and gillard showed up later which was heaps good too! Cos sars had messaged me earlier saying she didnt think she could come. But she did and i was happy! And debbie came later aswell! I was so loved i had 11 people there for me! I'm the best!

Then we had to line up to say my little bit. And i didnt know what to do with my hands, they wouldnt stop shaking and moving. I was so freaked, but i said my little bit and i was fine. And then the baptisms happened. And it all was very wow, but i was too nervous for me to really be awed by everyone else. And then it was my turn. And i grabbed beccas hand and we went in. The water was pretty warm, so that was good. And i saterted crying and becca cried and becca prayed for me in there and i went under and i came up and i hugged becca and then megan prayed or me and mr gourlay prayed for me and i was happy. It was awesome. I was actually pretty relieved that it was just over! But i was still really EXCITED that it was over, like i'd actually done it without chickening out. God was happy too.

Anyway then i gotted out of the pool and gotted a towel, and mark, and i think her names donna(?) prayed for me. The first thing mark said was that i was the next rebecca gourlay! I know that weirded bec out, but it meant so much to me! I remember one time, ages ago, some new christian girl in her small group said they wanted to be like her, and she was like 'as if, aim a bit higher sweetie', and i kinda just went oh so maybe i shouldnt say i want to be like her. Hahaha, not that i want to be bec or am jelous or anything! Its just bec has an awesome relationship with God going on. Everyone just knows bec's the spiro one. Everyone goes to her for help with God, or anything really, cos shes like the link to Him. They see God in her. Her relationship with God is something to be envied. I'm not doing a good job of explaining... becs just got the God thing going on, and i want that. So when mark said i was the next bec, he was saying i have that thing, that thing i cant even really describe that i admire in bec. That i've alwyas admired in bec. That something i've seen for years. I have that. I'm the next spiro girl, i'm the next most likely to be nun! Hehehe. I dunno, i never make sense, but that was just the most perfect word for me. That was amazing!

And yes that was my baptism.

Hnk Lyl

Nicole